Saturday, December 30, 2006
HI...it's been a while...I've been making a few mistakes right now. And I'm asking GOD if He could help me out with my "attitude" problem. It's kinda hard actually. I don't want people come knockin' at my door screaming to my face what a "bitch" I am. After all, I still wanted to be Mrs. Gerard Way in the near future. Nobody cares if I wanted that as a dream. Libre lang namang mangarap a. So anyway, what I'm trying to say here's I gotta take care of my FCUKin' ego before it bursts...I'll be the one caught dead if I don't do something about it. I guess I was born this way. Breaking the rules and end up hurting myself...Pretty hard right??
Who cares anyway...sometimes, it takes time to let other people know who you really are. Well few of my pals knew who I really was. My God, I couldn't even hear the words I've spoken, couldn't even imagine what I was doing all along. It's hard to explain, but honestly, I still don't know myself very well...do I need a therapy or something? I can't even sometimes feel God. I wanted to feel Him, like He's just there telling me: "It's okay, We're going to fix you." . .if ever He's there...that would be really nice. Most especially for the years to come.
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