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Valenatines Day

2007-02-14T20:55:00.001+08:00

How did I spend my Valentine's day?? Truth is this is the most memorable Valentine's day in my entire 17 years of living. You guys need not know why...but I'm telling you anyway. [haha]

I woke up, like I would in any ordinary day. You see, Valentine's day has always been special to me since high school but not today. I've grown mature and I don't seem to get it why I so want to have a boyfriend back then [aww, so childish]. And as usual, I haven't reviewed for my long test in Filipino [feeling major talaga 'tong subject na to]. So the sluggish lil' me woke up to eat my favorite food for the morning, tortang talong [you guys think that I was gonna study right? And by the way I'm a veggie]. I forgot about the date. But whatever.

After I have eaten my "my-day-is-not-complete-without-this" food, I took the urge to finally review [the most boring subject I've ever taken] Fil. I finished too early for my next class. I was thinking if I could do something [that I would usually do when I have nothing to do--got that?]. I thought about going to church.

As I got there, I saw the flower shop, and my God how unusual--there were only 2-3 people outside. I took a peek. Kaya pala anliit ng mga nandun kasi ang mamahal pala ng mga bulaklak goodness. But still I thought of buying one. It's just money. I don't care if I bought one for 50 pesos anyway. I just wanted to do something that I haven't done yet. Good thing [timing!], the cashier didn't have enough change for my money so he just gave it to me for 40 pesos [aaww, my first Valentine blessing!].

I entered the Jaro Cathedral's opening gate. The chapel has always been the safest place in the world for me. I would always go there, talk to Him about how my life is messed up, how desperate I am sometimes and I would confess to Him that I told somebody that 'she sucked' [God is everyone's bestfriend, that makes Him my bestfriend].

So as I was saying, I entered the chapel. Upon the opening of the chapel, the guard greeted me his sweet [uhh] greeting,k "Happy Valentine's Day!". I gave him a bashful smile [I don't smile at people that I don't know--which is why I'm often mistaken as arrogant]. Then as I was writing on my "To:" card, he told me: "How much is each rose?" [He doesn;t need to know about the whole 10 pesos tawad just because the cashier didn't have change for it you know] I answered back, "50 pesos each". Then he said: "Wow, those roses are indeed too expensive today, but I know there's not such thing as 'expensive' when you're going to give it to somebody special right?". Hmm...he's got a point, why didn't I even think of that. All I thought about was I was going to give God that present. "Right you are, Manong."

I went in. The usual. I talked to Him. This time I told Him about my concerns about love. How okay it was not to have any boyfriend for now, why I am so not interested in dating, and why I wanted so much more from my life before having a relationship [this topic is so out of my world you know]. Then talked to Him about my wishes and what I really wanted [or maybe who I really wanted..haha!]. And finally, I gave Him my little present, the rose which I bought. [Oh men that cashier has no idea how he brightened up my morning just because he's got not change]

I went out, confident on facing the day. Happy because I found the perfect moment that would complete this special occassion. And I'm satisfied.

I got to school, everyone was greeting everybody but there would be some who would still bury their faces with books. But seeing my friends is enough for me to rejoice that I am l.o.v.eed.

Dinner, I'm alone at home with my Lola and her taga-alaga, well all my cousins are probably with their dates. I'm the only one who's single at home so don't ask why. I texted my classmate from high school. I told her that I needed to go out bacause I might feel a bit more depressed if I just stayed at home. She agreed since she's so "badtrip" with her Geo class. So I went out with an unattached girl friend [singles rock!].

We talked about a lot of things. I updated and so did she. We shared a few silly stories about what we dreamt nights before. My classmate is a writer. I told her that I dreamt about somebody one night. And it was very unusual because it was too vivid. She said that it was "cute" [I hate that word, even though somebody would tell me that--as if there would be?! haha! Kidding! We are all born beautiful]. She got so amazed so she wanted to put my story on paper. I would love to read that story on Forum Dimensions! hehe. We laughed and talked until we had our last gulp of coffee. And I'm satisfied

And right now, I'm in front of the monitor, writing all that had happend the previous hours in this day. I'm finishing this day off by sharing my experiences and listening to My Chem. And I'm satisfied.

Learned

2007-02-04T15:33:00.000+08:00

I have diarrhea and acid on my stomach. I'm tired and I want to sleep.

There's not much to say right now. I just feel like updating. I'm going back to school again tomorrow. I hate school. But I need to.

It's a good thing I got sick. Just to see if I was human. [Geez, I never thought my parents could care a lot when I get sick]

Alert. My Gerard Way obsession is getting worse than I thought. That in fact I'm having troubles sleeping at night. Maybe I should see a psychiatrist or something. A psychiatrist once adviced that it was normal. So maybe I could continue my Gee OB.

This. If I could never get a new computer now, then I'd be sending my waves at bay. Why? For God's sake I am an IT student! [here goes the rant] How am I ever gonna survive college if I never got a computer of my own? Think, I will survive but an unsatisfactory suvival. Help.

Cannot be. I read something from wikipedia according to an MCR forum, that gerard was gay. He could not be gay! No way! He could not be gay! I don't believe this! Whoever edited that topic is such a [forgive me] moron. Okay, this might be just the result of misconception and my rants are just results of obsession and denial [God, am I crazy?]. Grrrrr! [okay...I'm taking this easy]

That I am so gone. Ever experienced a teacher burning like hell because of you? I made this itsy-bitsy mistake then =kaboom=. She favored those who were sooo sweet to her [aaaw<--this sucks]. Teachers like her should not teach. I know it's natural that some teachers, well practice favoritism. But I am so against it. I wish I got a better school.

I just can't get myself right now. I'd stay on my room for no reason and my tambayan would be in front of the monitor for hours. I see that my parents worry for me. I hate pork, I don't like eating and I haven't eaten since 2 days ago. I can't be anorexic, can I? I see myself fat, and yes I am. I don't have the ache for food but I still munch on chocolates [I know I should not]. Anything that has oil makes me want to vomit. I sleep a lot now. I skip meals too--unconciously. Is this the result of too much acid [I ate peanuts teh whole week--what can I say, I love them]?

Sheks

2007-01-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

We just finished filming some of the scenes that we'll be having for our movie trailer project in Multimedia. I'm so tired and a bit washed out.

I'm just so thankful to everybody who helped us with all the "hukay" of the props. I have cold and I think I'm about to have a headache. I've become a bit irritable these days too. I wonder why.

A groupmate [in this project], is making my nerves itch. I don't know actually. She didn't do anything as a matter of fact. She's so kind, so sweet that [sometimes] it becomes corny and it lights my ass up. [it's in a survey that one of the things that irritates people is: corniness (tama ba spelling?)] Let's face it, I'm acting kinda b*tchy right now. I hate this.

My head is all messed up. I don't know which task to handle first: my midterm exam in Programming, my feeling major exam in PE, my movie trailer or my suffering health [I hate this]. And...by the way, I'm getting fat as usual. I'm not eating tonight and maybe the following nights. I don't like food anymore. Except veggies [they're not food, they're alternatives for food---because food makes us fat. Okay this maybe is a wrong interpretation but what the heck]. My throat soars so I have this good excuse not to eat [talk about fooling myself].

Okay shift topic, my Uncle just arrived and guess what, my cousin bought me MCR's latest album [geez, I don't know why I hardlickin' like that band so much]. Mom told him that it was my latest: OB--obsession. I'm not obsessed, I'm just freakin' crazy about them! I have no idea how MCR's music morphed me into somebody else. I just don't know. [Like the way I answered my Dad back when he told me to shift to Nursing] My God, he has no idea about how many parents ever wished their kids to stick to only one course [less financial waste]--unless of course, they're illegal and they're kids would find themselves surrounded by media asking about bombings and death threats [whatever].

Right now, I just wished I get all my problems in school solved and this [itsy bitsy] presonality prob. Before it takes over me...and one day I 'll wake up with the world against me. I don't want that, besides who wanted it, would be such a moron.

Emo

2007-01-23T10:18:00.000+08:00

I am now listening to Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance their latest hit. I'm turning a bit of an "emo" nowadays. Maybe because I could express well with this new wave of personality. I like it. I want to live with it. It's like I felt like, I could be anything that I wanted to be. Nobody cares. So shut up [kidding, of course not you]. One problem is. My Dad, he hates black and he's bound to maybe hate me forever. He sees my slow pace change of style and looks. I go to church on baggy pants and of course minus the argyle socks. I don't know how my friends back in the province would react to it or maybe adjust to the new me, but all I know is, my college cliques did well. Ever since I moved here in the city, I kinda acted different. From the kinds of words that I speak and maybe the preferences. Food, drinks, clothing, tambayans but no, no drugs please and add the cigars and beers [I don't like them]. My room is messy and so is my hair. I was once this Taekwondo Junkie and I am part of the varsity team. I am sweet and innocent before I left the province. When I got their. Shocking, looks like I got out of place. But of course, I could never forget where I came from. Whenever I get back home, I'd be back on my black [of course I can't live without black] slippers, baggy [here we go again] jogging pants and fit [at last a piece that isn't even EMO!] blouse.

I don't care what other people say about this new uh...trend [?] that I am bound to become. What worries me is what my parents would say about their child. I know that ever since, my parents wanted pink and white for me instead of red and black. Ballet instead of taekwondo and keys instead of the strings. My Dad's birthday was yesterday, and I don't want to disapoint him so, I greeted him with the usual pasweet moves. I don't like to be sweet anymore. I'm growing up and it doesn't mean that I'm the only girl among the three (kids) of us, I had to be this sweet lil thing everybody's talking about: adorable. And by the way, my Dad hates loud, "turn it off please!" music. We are so totally different.

My cousins whom I live with here in the city aren't emos. They're extraordinary party animals and rockers too. I had a hard time getting along with them that's why sometimes, I get depressed and walk away. Then all of a sudden, I found myself: "oh, so this is me". And all that happend was more of looking beyond what I can see in the province. That there are a lot of things that I could think about. And that shaped me to be this way.

Torn...

2007-01-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

I'm having troubles with my relationship with my college classmates right now. Not that I started a fight again, but it's just that, I'm feeling a bit torn right now.

Midterms' done and so am I with all the trash talk in our classroom. I studied from 11:30pm until the sun rose and I can't even feel a single ache in my head. At least not for now...what made my head ache like hell was all the (like I've said) TRASHTALK that my peeps were buzzin'. I can't help their early moans and cries ans serious (backbiting) sessions. I can't even be that sure that they don't stab me at the back. I'm tired of them making false judgements against other people who don't even give a damn about what they do! Geezz, won't they even stop acting like babies coz they're now in college?! I too tired of listening to them when they talk about their new this and new that. I mean who cares about those stuffs, the more they talk about it the more other people would think sh*t about them. I don't care if they aced a hundred percent FLAT grade in Multimedia or in Programming! The competition tears me apart. I don't want to compete. It'll only make horrible relationships out of us.

My I don't know what's gotten into me right now. But one thing I know is for sure. I don't know my friends anymore. The more they rise up as "productive" individuals the more their heads turn into a 16 seat ferris wheel. To the point that they could hurt other people (and I'm pretty sure that includes me). Anybody could be their target. Here's a quote for them: GROW UP!

New Year

2006-12-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

HI...it's been a while...I've been making a few mistakes right now. And I'm asking GOD if He could help me out with my "attitude" problem. It's kinda hard actually. I don't want people come knockin' at my door screaming to my face what a "bitch" I am. After all, I still wanted to be Mrs. Gerard Way in the near future. Nobody cares if I wanted that as a dream. Libre lang namang mangarap a. So anyway, what I'm trying to say here's I gotta take care of my FCUKin' ego before it bursts...I'll be the one caught dead if I don't do something about it. I guess I was born this way. Breaking the rules and end up hurting myself...Pretty hard right??

Who cares anyway...sometimes, it takes time to let other people know who you really are. Well few of my pals knew who I really was. My God, I couldn't even hear the words I've spoken, couldn't even imagine what I was doing all along. It's hard to explain, but honestly, I still don't know myself very well...do I need a therapy or something? I can't even sometimes feel God. I wanted to feel Him, like He's just there telling me: "It's okay, We're going to fix you." . .if ever He's there...that would be really nice. Most especially for the years to come.

Cut it Out

2006-12-07T12:08:00.000+08:00

Okay...I'm cutting the whole Rigil thing out...I've separated my life with him and his feeling-edgy gf.

I'm soo happy right now. Wanna know why?? Coz I felt a lot more at ease. My cousin and I recovered the friendship we've shared from a few of my childish mistakes a long time ago. We talked for hours! From the moment I went in our room until she got off to work (she woks as a call agent--amazing working stud)

The early morning jog. On second thought...was it a jog we made kanina? Coz we walked all throughout the ROTC jog! haha! Coz they asked us to walk naman. E di maglalakad!

KwatroKantos. The only band I am so familiar with here in Iloilo. With Eman (from Pinoy Dream Academy) as the vocalist, who could not recognize them here in our province? Well, even though he got kicked out, I'm still proud of him. I didn't notice him, they had this gig in a huge event in school once before he got inside the Academy. By the way, you should listen to his song, Waiting List...I liked it.

Irritating. I wonder why I get so irritated easily. As I've read in Reader's Digest just a while ago about "What Irritates you", I figured out that it was still normal to be irritated with "KNOW-IT-ALLS". In the morning jog that I was talking about, a classmate of mine acted like a know-it-all! In RD's survey, know-it-alls ranked number 1 in the Philippines as the most common reason why pinoys go nuts! As I was saying about my classmate, well, she nearly embarassed me in front of my friends after saying that she knows this and that which made me shut up for a moment to think of my response to her kabastusan. I called it kabastusan kasi, really it was! You shouldn't butt in other people's ideas unless you have something "meaningful" to say. Meaningful, yung hindi nakakasakit yung ibig kong sabihin.

Hey...my class should be starting any minute now...gotta leave.

Why I decided to let him go

2006-12-04T12:00:00.000+08:00

Why would you fight for a friend na ayaw naman niyang ipaglaban mo siya. Minsan napag-isipisip ko na para na talaga akong tanga sa kakakonsinte sa kaibigan kong espesyal sa akin.

I've not yet mentioned her mean gf. Yeah me and Angel had to admit that we were mean to the gf before...but our "mean-ness" was quite reasonable though. For the fact that she's being maarte at unfair.

What if one day Rigil would just tell us to leave him alone? What if he'd tell us to mind our own business. Like on a scene in Wonderful life, where Daniel (Kim Jae Won or Seung Wan in Korean) told Sabrina (Eugene or Se jin in korean) to leave Cynthia (his two-timing ex) and him alone?! What if it happend to our friendship?! Sayang pa naman yung pangalan ng blog ko. Ipinangalan ko pa naman derived sa expreience naming tatlo. Kailan ko pa ba ulit makikita yung meteor na yun?! Sisingilin ko siya! Di niya kasi tinupad yung wish naming magkaibigan! I had to blame that stupid shooting star!!! Pinanilawa niya kasi akong, tutupadin niya yung hiniling naming tatlo!!!

As of now, talagang iiyak na talaga ako! Hindi ko alam kung galit ako dun sa gf niya?! Or just mad at myself for being sooo stupid! I don't know if I should blame Rigil for having an undeserving gf! Who considered our friendship (the Gel-Nin-Rig trio) a hindrance to her relationship with him! We used to be friends, the four of us. But the gf went OA...that Angel and I couldn't stand her sometimes.

Sometimes, Rigil would tell us: "Away kami kanina e...sinabihan niya akong #@$% things"! Which made me burn like hell sa galit sa ginawa ng gf! Alam mo minsan (Rigil forgive me ha?) para ka talagang tanga...ang martyr mo friend! Grabe! Nakayanan mong tiisin?! Mahal mo nga talaga.

Sa ngayon, there goes the gf, inviting Angel and I sa friendster, ginamit niya yung account ni Rigil. Tapos invite niya kaming dalawa ni Angel, showing off their newly taken pic...tapos naglagay din siya ng glitters all over the pic like exactly what I made (dun sa my pic naming tatlo sa pinakaibaba sa posts ko or you could check it out sa friendster ko--www.friendster.com/hopiatkd).

Basag ang facial expression ko ngayon. Di nga ako makatawa e. To the gf: Happy, are you?

di pa rin ayus

2006-11-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

Nagkaka-inisan pa rin kami...alang pagbabago between Rigil's gf and us. She even mentioned that she'd never sa sorry to us unless we admitted that we were wrong. Ang problema we couldn't eat our pride kasi, it was too risky. Why risky? She would probably think she always got away with everything. Ngayon pa lang kasi, sa mata ni Rigil kami yung mali e. Ano pa kaya kung kami yung mauunang makipag-ayos. Nasa utak ni Angel ngayon: di ko si Honey (gf ni Rigil) kailangan. I wouldn't waste my time on evil people. Maybe Honey is a bit evil sometimes. But, may kasalanan din kami paminsan-minsan. Although it wasn't that lala. I think we owe each other sorries. Which Angel, I think failed to realize. Not now maybe that she's so mad at Rigil's self-centered gf.

I don't want to be against anything. I'm talking about Rigil and Honey's "relationship". Those kids deserve to be left alone. But that's what we did naman. Honey just failed to understand situations like: why Rigil had to hangout with us (we're a barkada! Obvious ba?!), why Rigil had to be with us all the time. She even threatened us that she'd leave the team (taekwondo's our sport by the way--and we're all on the same team) just because she's too evnvious about her boyfriend spending time with his friends! Although it's natural but it doesn't give her the right to hurt our feelings!

This is sooo lame. I'm not into any fights anymore. But I can't deny the fact that my guy friend is still important to me.

2006-11-23T16:06:00.000+08:00

Magulo at Sira. Ganun kami ngayon nila Rigil at Angel. Sa ngayon kami nalang ang natira ni Angel sa barkada. Bakit? Ayaw ng GF ni Rigil na sumama sa amin yung bata e. Wala na kaming angal. Ganun nalang yun. Simple...nasira.

Nagkasiraan. Siniraan kami ng GF ni Rigil. Gumawa ng mga kwentong walang basehan at katotohanan.

Lumayo. Ganun na nga. Lumayo ang isang kaibigan dahil lang sa pag-ibig (natin kung tawagin) niya sa kanyang kasintahang...don't make me describe her!!!!

Pasensiya. Ganun na nga ginawa namin ni Angel. As mga "ate" ni Rigil, inintindi nalang namin siya. Why he had to be distant...

Ang Pagtatapos.

2006-11-22T17:36:00.000+08:00

All I could ever say to my blogmates is "SORRY". Tagal ko kasing mag-update bout my latest happenings e. So anyway let me compile it for you guys (since I was super busy chasing nothings almost everyday of my life).

1. I have this friend who has a third eye. She can even read what's on my mind. She told me that there's somebidy in my barkada who has bad intentions or lemme just say parang yung tumikwas...yung parang alang direkson and tago-kulo. Well I have this feeling na ako yung tinutukoy...although she was wrong about the "bad intentions" part. I love my barkada so much pero it was a bit true na parang nawawala ako minsan.

2. Shelley (my taekwondo jin friend) visited me at school just last monday. Salamat naman at naisipan niyang dumaan dun. Umaga pa lang e kasabay ko siya sa bus papuntang city (galing pa kasi kaming probinsya) tapos nagkita kami ulit late afternoon.

3. Sir Belanio's Assignment gives me the pain! Haaaay! Di pa nga kami nakakapass ng assignment one lumabas na yung assignment 2! Sweat na sweat kami sa subject nun.

4. Nawala money ku! Nawala ko yung allowance ko. Hala patay. Pero nakapaghingi naman ako ng tulong so mabuti-buti na rin ako ngayon.

5. Another visit from a taekwondo jin. Kanina nagkita kami ni Lynn June. Plans niya? Kukuha sana ng exam sa school namin. Buti sana kung andun siya. Ala nang loko-lokong mang-aapi sakin!!!! hehe.

6. Libre ako ni Mik-Mik or Kathlyn para mas formal! Kumain ako sa house nila. Classmate ko siya nung High School. Malapit lang pala boarding house nun samin. reunited!

So yan lang muna for now...busy talaga e. Dami ko pang problema ngayon. Next time ko nalang ibabahagi yun ha? Sige, Log Out muna. Me test pa kasi ke Sir Belanio e! hehe...kakatapos ko lang mag-encode. I

new and improved

2006-11-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

- Get Your Own

I got tagged! But before anything else, I'd like to introduce my latest blog! Meteorology kasi study of the weather ika nga. Kasi I was listening sa Statistics (first day namin actually) namin kanina with Sir Pedrino (nga ba un?), then he told us something about "meteorology". Weather huh? Timing kasi, weather = condition ng atmosphere...tulad ko weather = kundisyon o status ko for the moment.

My dobleng meaning actually. "Meteor" parang nahulog na bulalakaw. Kasi kami ng barkada ko (Angel, ako at Rigil--andun sa picture ko sa left side ng page), e nakakita ng shooting star. Tapos we had the same wishes! Haaay..hoping ako na magkatotoo yun. Lagi ko kasi silang naaalala.

Johanna Tagged me sa site niya and this is how it will go:
Simply list down nine weird things about one's self and tag nine others.

1. Lagi akong nahuhuli sa klase. Pero minsan ako naman yung pinakanaunang pumasok ng room.
2. Hindi ako umiinom ng Coca Cola o Pepsi o Sarsi (sorry ha...).
3. Mukha akong mataba pero ang totoo, hindi naman (ang gulo ano?)
4. Gusto kong simulan ang isang bagay pero di ko matapos tapos ng maayos...
5. Papalitpalit ako ng gusto! Weird na yun ha? ay teka, hindi pala...(hehe)
6. I get envious, kahit di naman ako inaano

Eto pa lang talaga yung nalalaman kong weird sakin e...hehe. Hindi pa ako makakatag ng iba pa kasi konti palang yung links ko e...

Sana marami akong comments ngayon...hehe.